im so in love with him. sometimes it hurts.

i figure its a good time to come back to this journal. as my world falls apart around me and i have to keep some secrets, i need a decent place to put them. here will work for now. i have fallen in love with someone else and i cant seem to figure out what to do about that. i never wanted to be this kind of person. i thought id be happy with you. ( Read more... )

i wish that i was happier. i think i wish for it so hard that it cancels out something and so i dont get to have it happen.

i almost forgot about this journal.

fuck you

i got tickets for the pixies...and psychic tv! i can hardly wait. both are going to be so much fun! ive been waiting to see ptv forever.... :) only thing that sucks is that i have to go to chicago. i hate doing all the diving and getting lsot and shit. thats no fun. oh well.

i love big black. i will never stop listening to them.

i hate the fact that i can never seem to fall asleep. i mean id love to be alseep right now but it just wont happen. i want sweet dreams that make me feel better.

ive got a crush. its not very secret and i love it. i just dont know quite what to do. :)

i am having a seriously shitty day. why do people hurt the ones they "love"? i mean i know i do it sometimes but i dont do it all the time. im getting pretty sick of being treated like shit. i deserve better and im about to go out and find it. speaking of going out, i plan to tonight and i hope that it is a wonderful evening.