i am definitely not feeling to happy at this point. december marks the beginning of the worst year of my life. to be quite honest, i don't see it getting any better. i've tried and tried and tried and i really haven't gotten anywhere. if i don't get into grad school, i'm fucked.

the stress level for completing my grad school apps and getting everything together for them is EXTREMELY high right now. i don't like it.

having to work so fucking much at shit jobs while people i know are off collecting unemployment and traveling across the country AND other countries just completely dumbfounds me.

i'm not in a good mood at

okay. the last few months have been ROUGH. i've worked three horrible jobs. i work with scum. well, some of the people are scum. it's just really difficult working in a more professional atmosphere, where i admit i know i didn't fit in completely, to working in an environment that takes no intelligence whatsoever. i work in places that are so drama ( Read more... )

i have neglected you, livejournal, and i am sorry for that. life is starting to become "normal" again and once i can get my head back on straight i'll update you on the last few hellish months. promise.

i hate my life.

i'm 22. i have a bachelor's degree. i have a nice car. i have a cool apartment. i have a cat. i have a pretty alright comic book collection ( Read more... )

okay, i thought that was it, but it's not. just a few minutes ago a friend, the one that sent me the postcard, said that he has been in rehab for the past two weeks. something i had no idea about. i guess he's had a problem for a really long time and now he's finally getting help. he said i was part of the reason he decided to go for it. like..i'm ( Read more... )

i think have telepathy. i mean, sure, i'm ALWAYS wishing for superpowers (seriously, every fucking day), and today was just another time when it occured too coincidentally. emailed my recruiter about my tattoos. she responds VERY quickly with "oh, we were JUST talking about you." these kinds of things occur often. far too often ( Read more... )

today was kind of all over the board. today has been boring, gloomy, fun, short, annoying, sorrowful, helpful, and optimistic ( Read more... )

one of my old coworkers from a&c just called me out of the blue, 10:47pm, and said that she was really worried about me and that if i needed it, she had a room at her and her husbands place i could stay at until i got on my feet. that was the NICEST thing anyone has done for me during this hardship. i can't believe how incredibly thoughtful that ( Read more... )