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The Artist
Art is an imitation of life...I sometimes feel like I am an artist creating and webbing my own story, this thing I call life, I make it up as I go. I wonder if other people feel that way. As though nothing is real and everything is just another fake, another fake sweetener, another plastic body, another fake smile....an impossible journey to find ( Read more... ) -
One of my favorites <3
I've been a bad bad girl
I've been careless with a delicate man
And it's a sad sad world
When a girl will break a boy
Just because she can
Don't you tell me to deny it
I've done wrong and I want to
Suffer for my sins
I've come to you 'cause I need
Guidance to be true
And I just don't know where I can begin
What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm ( Read more... ) -
Where did it all go
I feel like it's all lost now and there is no way of returning. I feel like I am trapt. I feel like I don't know what it is I want. I feel like I am back in square one. In time passing has anything been learnt. Has anything been changed. Should there be liberation. Should there be chains. Should it be or should it end. Is it possible to find our ( Read more... ) -
Where did it all go
I feel like it's all lost now and there is no way of returning. I feel like I am trapt. I feel like I don't know what it is I want. I feel like I am back in square one. In time passing has anything been learnt. Has anything been changed. Should there be liberation. Should there be chains. Should it be or should it end. Is it possible to find our ( Read more... ) -
The Line Between Love and Hate
If your having a good day you should probably not read this.
Yesterday I opened myself in a way I had not realized I ever would. I knew that part still existed that the pain of my old battle wounds were still there but as I recounted the past I came to the realizations that the pain was still as vivid as the day I walked away. It was a hard ( Read more... ) -
Trinkets
"Well, excuse me, guess I've mistaken you for somebody else,
Somebody who gave a damn,
Somebody more like myself."
This week has been straight out of a horror movie. I can't remember ever being sick for longer than two or three days...today makes day 9....and all I want to do is lie in bed until it goes away...
I found something today I thought I'd ( Read more... ) -
Nightmares
Its hard to write knowing that I can be judged by anyone or everyone I know. It makes me feel as though I have to censor my words, my feelings, my thoughts, everything I about me. Maybe that is why I haven't done it in so long. I used to blog constantly knowing that only a handful of people I actually read it. Shit, maybe I'm giving myself too much ( Read more... ) -
Too Much TV is bad for your mind...
Not that anyone ever bothers to read my rantings but I'm stuck at my pointless job. With not much else to do but write down all the semi psycho thoughts that go through my mind ( Read more... ) -
Just a reminder
This weekend I got a little bit of a surprise...enough that it seems important for me to chronical it on my LJ. It was closure, that I didn't even realize I needed and all it took was a sincere note from someone who is no longer in my life. So why did it get to me? I don't know how to explain it, it's hard to put you inside my head to hear my ( Read more... ) -
Some how it all makes sense again
let it go ( Read more... )