Went out for dinner and a movie with adam tonight - god we went to this sushi place that was soooooo expensive and really not worth it then we went and saw SNAKES ON A PLANE !!!!! OMG that was a funny show ( Read more... )

so after a couple of emotionally rocky days today is a good day - my days and nights are kind of blurred by when the alarm goes to take my pill and when the alarm goes to call john. he is litrally half a world away. I am tempted to go knock on my neighbors door - i havMost e decided i should have listened to my instincts on that one and just been ( Read more... )

So I finished a Feast for Crows. Didnt take me as long as I hoped it would I actually found myself a little anoyed with the book at points. i will need to re read it when a dance with Dragon makes its way to hard cover ( there is no way I will wait now ( Read more... )

Pillow pants is mopey

I just want to die - there is no answer there is no way to be happy - life will just keep going in circles never trust any one and never love any one even if they never try to hurt you they will and the pain will be unbarable

So about now John is looking forward to getting off a very very long flight 14 hours or so. and into to hong kong ( Read more... )

John is gone.

So John left the country today - I wish he had cleaned the apartment first!

all these boxes GAWD !!!!

tahts it

So last night went really well I think the Lithium is really working. I was worried for a bit that I was going through some side effects as my shoulder was killing me. But nope it was jsut a pulled muscle ( Read more... )

Today i have had a bit more energy I started to unpack some stuff and then got very tired and thirsty I was bored so I played my favorite MSN game "piss adam off" it was really easy today I am either getting better at this or he is getting more sensitive ( Read more... )

last night was a bit of a rough night I had it in my head John had run off with Christina. that was of course not hte case. Today i felt great - i learnt how to knitt with grandma marry and went to orientation for my group therapy. I then felt so good I thought I could solve this bi polor thing by going out and getting a job - so i applied for a ( Read more... )