today... i had my first (legal) driving session! it's was quite fun. i decided to learn manual andso my left foot felt so funky fresh coming out of the car. i made the car die three times. one when i panicked in the middle of an intersection. it was quite fun though. i was able to go for seventeen kilometers in two hours. (that's right suckas the ( Read more... )

i can't sleep. i don't want to read a book because there is no nice spot in the house to sit nicely and read and i have to resort to lying on my belly and soon my chin will be on the pillow and after long hours of reading i will get out and my mouth would feel funny making it feel my under bite is so much worse ( Read more... )

amadeus is upstairs sitting in front of the computer, right to the left of him is a shampoo with the name "gee, you hair smells terrific". mother just bought this shampoo. shampoo is like the shampoo the family use to use.
"wow. what's that shampoo sitting next to you?" sam asked as always the curious and youngest child.
"this shampoo," amadeus ( Read more... )

i went downstairs around 1:30 to watch tv. (great teacher onizuka). and a little bit after my brother comes down. looks like he just cried or scared or whatnot. he passes by me and gets a drink of water. i stare at him while he moves. he come back to me and starts talking. mumbling. the words coming our of his mouth only some i recognize. big... ( Read more... )

i have a habit of saying sorry. i say sorry all the time. i'm just used to it and people always ask why i'm sorry. i guess maybe if i say sorry everything will be alright ( Read more... )

this whole week. i've just been in a sighing mood. sighing to much it's like breathing already. everytime i notice my breathing it's a deep breath... then a low exhale. breathing in correlation with my thoughts is sometimes good sometimes not. i remember sighing very loud and the person i was with asked me if i was okay. i said i was i but wasn't ( Read more... )

before. back in vallejo. when i was feeling down or i can't handle family i would go to mcdonalds down the street. i would buy a milkshake and french fries or chicken nuggets. it was a mcdonalds close to the freeway so hardly no one was inside and was just driving by. i would sit in this place where the counter can't see me in this area it has ( Read more... )

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then, i turned around and walked to my room and closed my door and put my head under my pillow and let the quiet put things where they are suppose to be.

charlie
perks of being a wallflower

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i'm still awake. i fell asleep thinking, trying to get my thoughts together what to draw but i fell asleep. i woke up and i started reading perks of ( Read more... )

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