i think my mode on listening to catpower and belle and sebastian and whatnot is over. i'm craving screaming and guitars crashing and deep bass drums that when you walk you can feel the earth move ( Read more... )

and so my lola (grandmumsies) is here from the u.s. she's not really my lola but i grew up with her. and so i asked a few things from my cousins and one of them was perks of being a wallflower. wanna know where they got it? the school library! they searched everywhere to find the book but no one seems to have it in stock. and so they decided to go ( Read more... )

and so the mysterious parcel sender is mr. jonathan crisman! thank you! thank you! thank you! much pardon for the philippine postal corporation. your letter said you sent it december four. it only came now! goodness.


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someone sent me a parcel. i don't know who it's from. the post office just notified me that there's one in their office. did anyone sent me a parcel? i'm quite curious. i'm going to get it today.

and so it's january. i'm still here.

-sigh-

gah! i'm just really homesick.

today was a nice day. i went out with my mom. first we went and printed those bookmarks. we had a lot of time to talk in the car due to all these traffic in the city. mostly about what we wanted to do. like about how one day i want to make my own printing place (with silkscreen printing and buttons ofcourse) and how next to it will be a cafe in ( Read more... )

a few hours ago paranoia struck me. i don't know why i always do this. i always think for the worse. my head plays these thoughts so vividly too. what's worse all these thoughts is always about somehow me being struck down, put down or whathaveyou. i was so close to screaming in the car about to say, shut up, deus. shut the fuck upi have too much ( Read more... )

new years resolutions ( Read more... )

peoples peoples peoples. they need to be recognized. i need to show my love to them.

ailene. my godsister and the first person to befriend me in the philippines. i've been so blessed by her. she's affected/influenced -what's the word?!- my life so much. i tried telling her this but i couldn't explain it to her. she also has good taste in books ( Read more... )

this past week i've been gone has been life changing. i can't even explain. i've fell in love with so many, so many. in love that i can't even explain. i realized i hid my love from so many people, even myself. that's changed. so much things have changed. i'm still getting my thoughts together and i'm leaving this at this for now ( Read more... )