I'm single.

Life sucks. I don't even know where to begin to explain where my life is going. I'm failing my classes, I keep fighting with my boyfriend, and I can hardly wake up in the morning ( Read more... )

I honestly feel like I can't take it anymore. I can't stand school, in which, I'm doing poorly. I'm so tired all the time. I'm depressed. I'd rather sit in my room reading a good book than see anyone ( Read more... )

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There is some truth in this song when I think about my mom and her death... Especially this quote "Confusion never stops
Closing walls and ticking clocks. Gonna come back and take you home." I'm picking up her ashes tomorrow in Tampa. I have to pass the accident site on the way. :/

Coldplay- Clocks

The lights go out and I can't be saved
Tides that I ( Read more... )

This is the poem that I read at my moms service. I only wish I could have said more:

E.E. Cummings- I Carry Your Heart

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you ( Read more... )

3 Doors Down- "Here Without You"

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think ( Read more... )

I just woke up from a weird dream with my mom in it. For some reason she was taking my brother and I to Miami, but we had to travel through this cave that was flooded with freezing water. We thought the car was going to sink. When we finally made it, we parked and started heading to our hotel. For some reason, that's when my sister appeared and I ( Read more... )

So last night before I went to sleep, I had the realization that my moms dog, Chloe, is rotting somewhere. It grossed me out and made me almost have a panic attack. Then it sparked the realization that my mom is separated into 3 bags and was incinerated. I know she didn't feel anything, but it's so morbid and I almost feel sick thinking about it. I ( Read more... )