well then

[karasu_kakashi]

still have dreams that leave me feeling like crap or even moe lonely when i wake up. perhaps i'll learn to deal with them but , i really don't care for them in the least. after i started third shift at work i see less and less of people. i've caught myself in yahoo chat just looking for someone to talk with

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[vamprissamber]

My heart really breaks with you, I know what you are feeling. Theres not really anything I can say to make it better. I do know talking about it a lot as much as possible really does help. It brings it to the surface and makes it feel like she is right there. I know maybe when your mind will drift just for a moment, maybe on something else it's nearly impossible- I know. But when it happens then this guilt sets in, you don't want her to think you have forgotten, even for a second. Then it feels like it starts all over. I can't really say that it gets better with time, everyone is different. I have been mourning a loss for 10 years this past feb 22, that still brings me to my knees in pain. It still feels like the first day. It's also really hard to watch everyone else in the world move on, because then you think to yourself "how could they, cant they see something so important is missing?" I dont know if I'm making any sence, I just know I have been there so many times I used to think I was cursed. I'm hoping you will feel better soon

[huggscancer]

*huggs hunny*

good luck with everything

*huggs*

[x_balance]

Just try to hang in there homie.

I know that I don't have too many supporting comments, but that's because it's hard to find anything to say that I feel could really help you. All I can give is my thoughts, support, and prayers, and you got'em.

[iblackstar]

I know it probably seems like an impossibility in a sea of suffering, but remember the tao. Do not forget the tao. Study the tao. Do your hardest to live the tao. I know it helped me when my life was at its darkest. I felt before hand that I knew the options I would have when I hit that point. I felt that if it ever happened I would either end it all right then and there, or I would live for myself and take advantage of everyone around me for my own enjoyment, lashing out at life and the world in an attempt for satisfaction from frustration. But then I found the third option, one I had never though possible. I found the tao, and I dove head first into it, submerging myself within its warmt, soothing myself in its coolness. It helped save me. The only time now that I feel the world is swallowing me up is when I faulter from the path. I know you know the path. It just takes motivation to stay on it, motivation that there is no one around to help give me

[anaprilfool]

Hey, we played a bit on XBC, you and kittie showed me how to use it and such. I worked with her at INS and considered her a good friend before our lives took us in different directions. She came and saw my play and went with me to the cast party afterwards...she sang like a prayer....god damn she was good! I had so much fun that night, by far the best cast party ever, everyone adored her. I lost touch of her and when I found her on here I was shocked to here of her move out of IA and the past. Again I find myself comepletely stunned to learn of her passing. I can't imagine what it must be like to be so close to someone who leaves us like that. I know a million people have offered their sympathies, I hope theres room for one more. With a heavy heart, J