I most often write in my xanga journal these days, mainly cuz LJ is soooo slooooowwwww.....so feel free to check it out. The address is http://www.xanga.com/karategrl84. Granted, I will write occasionally in here, but for any earth-shattering news of my life, you better read that one ( Read more... )

I wish you could know how you make me feel ( Read more... )

I just thought I would use this time to tell everyone that I have the most wonderful girlfriend in the world. She is amazing......words can't begin to express all that I feel for her. To say that I love her would be an understatement. It's so much more than that, and who ever would have thought that there could be more than love? I always thought ( Read more... )

This song makes me chuckle....but it raises a good point. How do you know someone is still going to love you if the circumstances were different? Well Heather, I know you would...cuz that's just how you are ( Read more... )

I have this weird notion that I need to be happy for everyone. Like, when people are unhappy, I feel like I should be happy FOR them, like it should be my personal duty to MAKE SURE their problems are not made worse by me telling them my problems. Like I should put my effort into making THEM happy. Sometimes....it gets a little old, me being that ( Read more... )

I'm debating on whether or not to stay at work til 6 tonight....I could use the money, and it definitelty beats sitting around on my ass and moping here at home. That's never good....it's not so much moping as it is sitting around with nothing to do and then getting depressed because of it! I'm not used to sitting around like this; I'm always doing ( Read more... )

I'm trying to decide exactly how I feel right now....but I don't think it can be decided! All I know for sure is that I have a knee cramp, and I'm hungry! Emotionally....I don't know. I guess there's just a lot going on in my head and it's all jumbled up and just confusing! I dunno. But I want some jalapeno poppers. I think I'll make some, and ( Read more... )

So Heather is back....she's taking a shower right now in my bathroom. I was really glad to see her but I hope she knows that I would have been happier if she would have found somewhere to stay so that she was safe. I have this feeling she thinks I secretly dont want her to find somewhere or something, just cuz I miss her. I can't help but miss her ( Read more... )

She left this morning....one of the hardest things I've ever had to do was to turn around and walk away from the love of my life and put my faith in the fact that I will see her soon. That we won't grow apart...because our relationship is too strong for that. But most importantly, I had to turn and walk away with the faith that she would be happy ( Read more... )

I feel horribly out of control and I don't like it....it's very frustrating for me. I'm not a big control freak, but....the hardest thing in the world for me is to sit there and watch someone close to me in pain and not be able to do a damn thing about it....why can't I take her pain and give it to myself? Why can't I leave and take her far away? ( Read more... )