I give up

"It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And ( Read more... )

I feel like shit and i feel so incredibly hurt. He told me he would never hurt me, and just like that, he did. I miss him like crazy already and I wish i could take him back but i know that would be the biggest mistake of my life. I am trying to use any strength i have to not go back out with him. I just want the pain to end.

Well i know i havent updated in FOREVER so here goes. My life has been pretty ok lately. I hate school and i have absolutly zero motivation and i REALLY wish i did. I totally regret not moving out of my house b/c i am treated like a child. I turned 18 about 2 weeks ago finally. It felt like i was 17 forever for some reason. Also I got drunk for ( Read more... )

I am sooooo unbelieavably happy right now =]

well as most of u i am at ucf and i has been a little over a month already and I hate it. I go to school then work at night and I barely have a life and it sucks. I also havent really met anybody yet which doesnt make things any easier. Also i am the first person in my ENTIRE family to go to college in america so my paretns dont understand and ( Read more... )

So Saturday i got my very own car. It is a silver 2006 toyota corolla and it is really nice. And today I finally got my liscense and I am sooooooooo happy. It was really easy and i didnt have ti be nervous at all, the test itself took like 15 mins but me and my mom were at the DMV for 2 hours.

Well i know I havent upted in forever and a half so here goes. Well i finally graduated and it was really weird feeling i cant belive I'm finally done. My dad's side of the family came from egypt for graduationa nd that was .... interesting to say the least. Then that thursday and friday i had orentation for ucf which lasted soooooooooooo long. the ( Read more... )

00. Think of the first word that comes to mind when you think of me.

01. Run a google image search on that word.

02. Reply to this entry & post one of the pictures from your search, but don't tell me what the word was.

03. Put this in your journal, so I can do the same.

Today is my birthday and I went to Carrabas w/my family which was good cuz I LOVE that place. Then I had to clean when I got home cuz Jake and his family came over to have cake which was exciting and it went really well even tho I said some really stupid things as usual lol. Other than that we had a lot of fun. Jacob gave me the movie ( Read more... )