Comments | karenland: ... more me.

karenland

... more me.

Jun 01, 2004 18:15

I really need to do this. I feel self-centered, but, I really need to be able to see myself accurately ( Read more... )

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fairy_healer June 3 2004, 08:44:07 UTC

Hey sweety. I could have written that myself LOL. I hope you are doing well... miss u lots.

karenland June 3 2004, 18:30:52 UTC

Things get more crazy by the day. I don't even know what I'm going to do about it all yet. I see that you've been caught up in it too. I know we will pull through. It's our nature to make it out ok - no matter how complicated it gets. Take care sweetie. Talk to you soon.

Keep at it! anonymous June 3 2004, 15:55:32 UTC

I think talking all this out the way you are doing is a good thing. You sound like you really are getting it all together, and I hope you continue to do so.

I admire your spirit and determination. It'll all happen your way, with an attitude like that.

seamus444@hotmail.com

Re: Keep at it! karenland June 3 2004, 18:40:08 UTC

Thank you for the encouragement! It comes at an appropriate time. I do appreciate it. :)

lostnconfusd June 4 2004, 05:52:06 UTC

heh, hey whats up? anything new? i dont have much thats new. got 2 graduation presents so far. my grandpa has given me a cell phone, my mom has given my brother my room (written about in journal) blah, heh. wasn't expecting the second one to happen. my mom said she was kicking my bro out cause she realized my point about him not paying rent, working at taco bell, and being 22. then my brother talked to her, and now she accuses me of manipulating her. heh, fuck that. i'm going to do the mature thing, and not get mad, or even. i'm going to leave. so i'll be kicked out (most likely homelss for a bit), unable to pay for my 1st graduation present which is the cell phone. LoL. well, at least i have something my mom and brother doesnt. i have a diploma, something that neither of them will ever have. also, eventually, i will have college, another thing neither will have. heh, thats enough "revenge" for itself. but ya, thats about all thats new. graduating tomorrow @ 3. going to nates for a grad. party since my family decided not ( ... )

Re: Hey there, sweetie... specialkae June 14 2004, 18:58:00 UTC

Honest self-analysis. Always a plus, yet often one of the hardest things to come by... I'm glad to see that you are trying. Out of curiosity, are you tackling your demons on your own, or are you on any meds right now??? Just wondering... These things that you speak of are things that I had to do for myself, as well. I think it has been a lot easier once I found something that worked for me. It's easier to think clearly with a clearer mind. When it's hard to follow one thought from beginning to in inside your own head, it's kinda defeats the purpose of honest assessment. I was just wondering how you are doing with all of this... Lemme know... :)

Re: Hey there, sweetie... karenland June 18 2004, 15:47:42 UTC

Hey there! No, I am doing it myself. I know that meds cause unrepairable damage. I will be stronger if I can do this on my own. I also am cleaning out my system with a gradual detox system and working more on my over-all health, like working out, being more active outdoors, derailing my bad habits and getting more quality sleep. It hasn't been as consistant as I would like, but it is working. I also got some CDs to play while I'm sleeping that will assist in my "re-programming" efforts. They are pretty cool. They are called "Think Right Now". I think the "Stop Smoking" CD is lame but the "Achieving Goals" CD rocks. I have one for healing yourself and one that I got for KJ for Anxiety that I haven't listened to yet. I'll let you know how they work... Anyway, I hope all is well for you. Big hugs and kisses!! ~K

Re: Hey there, sweetie... specialkae June 18 2004, 18:06:10 UTC

You know... I think that the "self-healing" method might have worked for me before the chemical candy that I enjoyed way too much for way too long. Since then, it was way too much for me to attempt on my own. Even with the meds I still have to practice thought-correction and mental maintenance. It still requires major effort. I wonder where I would be without it. I've done a lot of research on the medicine I'm taking... There are lots of meds that do mess you up pretty bad in the long-run. Like the meds that they started me out on... (cross your fingers that you don't get liver disease later) but there are others, like what I'm on now, that don't have much possibility of long term effects. I figure I'm more destructive to myself without meds, then the meds are to me... It's all a tradeoff. Having to take them everyday kinds sucks... But not having to deal with tweaker-like symptoms, acting up and regretting it later, emotionally crashing so bad I don't get out of bed for a week, and the stress it causes those around me, ( ... )