I wonder what it really is to "fight the good fight" - Is fighting really ever good, or necessary?

Maybe not. Fights involve pain, ego, confusion, opposition, defensive posturing, harmful intent, pride, insecurity, fear, jealousy, self-serving, self-righteousness and by their very nature, violence.

But also, fighting ignorance and lies, fighting for ( Read more... )

This is the first time in a long time that I haven't been swept into some chaotic backwater eddy of worry littered with the rotting remnants of past mistakes with an undertow of feeling as though I must prove myself worthy of loving, nonetheless trusting.

It is said that only the best 20% of the effort used in a day results in 80% progress. Maybe ( Read more... )

Life can be so beautiful if that's what we make it. The resistance I must struggle through to make life beautiful is astounding to me! Why would one fight so hard against what is good? Enjoying life could be scary, I guess, if one felt that by appreciating anything one would leave oneself vulnerable to loss and pain. That, to me is a worthwhile ( Read more... )

It's time for me to do a reality check observi

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Imagine, for a moment, that when we were born, we were issued one set of clothes that we have to wear every day for the rest of our lives. What would your clothes look like now? What if you were on stage for everyone to see? How would you feel in those clothes ( Read more... )

It seems I am drawn to people on the verge of loosing their minds. My current love, Damond Eugene Linner, seems to be going through a transition into Paranoid Schitzophrenia much like my love, Thomas Vincent Whalen, both thanks to their mother's genes.

Maybe I should just stop picking them.

I'm alive and still thinking.

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The thoughts that have been surfacing like cold clear water running from somewhere deep inside are ( Read more... )

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My mind is tossing about like ... well, you know, like a bottle on the ocean. I'm watching "You've got mail" on my parents' television. I'm seeing a "counselor" and a Dr. for depression. They are trying me on two different medications. There is something, like an anchor or a suit of lead, like the ones at the dentist's office when they're ( Read more... )