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things are looking up, more understanding between the both of us. i wish i could see her this weekend, but SHE's busy, and the next 2 weekends I'M busy, so the earliest i can see her is on the 8th. oh well, i cant wait :). Cant wait til i graduate and can see her everyday, that's gonna be awesome ( Read more... )

randi im really scared because you are the only thing in my life that makes me happy and makes me just feel happy when im around you. no matter what's going on when im with you, im happy. I just dont want to lose that. i dont want to lose you ( Read more... )

heart problems, failing @ school, and girlfriend problems. life really hates me right now. chest pains, 65, and "taking a break with jesse on saturday until probably 3am". Fuck. this is one of those few times in life where suicide looks fucking awesome. everything's falling apart and nothing seems to be okay. if i survive this, which chances are i ( Read more... )

im dum ( Read more... )

yeah, i saw randi this weekend. i loved it, but i dont know how she felt. im so afraid that she doesnt want to be with me right now. i dont know how id be able to handle it. i just wish...that it will all be okay eventually. i dont know... im really scared that shes really not happy with me. if she is i wish she would say it cause i dont want her ( Read more... )

i hate today. its not even a monday. im scared, and sad, and depressed right now. i think i am losing randi...but im not sure...im really afraid i am. i dunno. i AM seeing here a week from yesterday, to about a week minus one hour, but i dont know whether or not she'll want me down there.

i dunno.

ill just hope and see what happens.

to all those concerned about the last set of updates...im sorry...im really not usually like that...but...it was uncalled for. Im sorry i got mad randi...please 4give me :(
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damn i havent been on here for a while, most ppl will be like "wtf, y the hell is he writing. i thought he died"

damn, this hurts how she's pissed whether i show my feelings or not

she wants me to let shit out, but gets pissed when i do. what do i do then? just, nothing? no thats the first 1? she knows when i lie, so i just cant tell her what she wants, so what the fuck do i do?

damn..

i just need help.

jeez, this shit fucking sucks!!! i FUCKING HATE THIS!!! I JUST WANT IT TO FUCKING QUIT!!! WHY THE FUCK CANT I HAVE ANY FEELINGS ABOUT IT!!! WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO BE WRONG, BUT I CANT FUCKING SAY ANYTHING!!! I JUST WANT TO TRY TO GET THINGS BACK TO THE WAY THEY WERE ( Read more... )