well, im saying fuck you to livejournal.com... blogs in general are bullshit, so yeah ( Read more... )

IN MEMORIAM OF ILENE MCCARTHY
LOVE U GRAMMA

73 YEARS, OF A 29 YEAR OLD LADY

i woke up about 30 minutes ago...dont know why...its like, 3:30 in the morning...never done that before...i really hate life now.

i realize that i am just a failure, like everyone hints at, but no one wants to say. i wish i could just leave, but like people tell me, i am too much of a coward to do anything about it.

god i hate me

love is a four-lettered lie ( Read more... )

ok, its been awhile since ive updated, i dont know why i am, but then again, nobody understands me at all, they all try to guess what i am, but they get it wrong. y do i try? y do i keep going? y do i do it again? y ( Read more... )

i wish i lived in japan

that way i could commit sepukku and it would be okay

wouldnt have a religion to weigh me down with the eternal punishment for those who commit suicide

just do it...and it would be honorable

but no

i dont

so ill have to live with me kicking myself in the ass

yay ruining multiple ppls lives! :)
im getting SO much coal this year...and i didnt even try! yay!
ill use it to burn me.

well, im glad mike and his xbox visited...he brought shooters...halo, halo2 and especially punisher help relive stress... tormenting ppl with piranas...killing them on sacraficial tables...yeah

i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me ( Read more... )

wow...my lifes pretty much fallen apart at the seams

i failed english, with a 69...so i cant do dual credit anymore.
so, in order to take government, i had to either quit band or choir.
i chose to quit choir cause ive only done that for half a year, and not six and a half like band.
pile on all the otehr junk.
and yeah
nervous breakdowns galore

well...im scared ( Read more... )