u ever have that devil on one shoulder and that angel on the other, arguing the crap outta each other, trying to get u to believe one or the other.

well, im having that...only they look exactly the same.

i just need to figgur out which one to listen to, without any outside noise.

ps. im waiting until the 19th, not new years to make a final

joe currently does not like his position. it seems that once randi and joe broke up, it opend the floodgates for everyone to tell joe thier problems. joe really needs someone to hep him through all this. like, someone to confess the confessions he hears to, but alas, either joe really doesnt want to talk to them about this, he cant, theyr to ( Read more... )

...i know its kidnda early to do this...and that no one really cares much but:

happy birthday randi...all 2 hours of it thus far...

yeah

this is so fucking hard. i dont wanna break up with randi, but i think that it needs to happpen. i havent been able to make her happy at all, so i really don think i should be wasting her time...plus im gonna be leavin soon anyways...i really dont wanna talk to her until at least newyears so that i dont make any decisions based off of my randi ( Read more... )

these past few weeks i have figured out why guys and girls break up ( Read more... )

yes, as i have explained earlier tonight, i read old ljs and letters from randi, and the phrase "i luv u" and "ill never leave u" and "i need u." apparently not...just fyi randi...if ur gonna say u luv someone, dont lie, okay? cause then people stop trusting you, and eventually u will run out of friends. sure, im just one man, but remember, ur ( Read more... )

readin old lj's from me and randi, and i really hate her now.

fuck

well, i found out in 6 words that randis a fucking lyer:

"and the sex wasnt good anyways!"

thus implying that she knew better sex, which implies that shes had sex with more ppl than she said, and if she would mention it, she thought about it alot, so she was just after me for sex anyways

so fuck you

y'know, i really thought that i would deal with rejection easier...i never thought i wouldve stoopd as low as i did. everywhere i lookd, heard, something would remind me of her. its hard. every sense has a memory of her. its so fucking hard. went for caffine. didnt work. yeah, not 2 happy with the shit that i did durning immediate letdown...not ( Read more... )

yeah, this time last year... fuck... those who remember, i hate thanksgiving with a firey passion of 9012734918027409218374982136471320643297 suns...which are very hot. yeah, me and randi mutually broke up...and it wouldnt bother me...if what she said about her parents wasnt true. it sounds like they influenced her decision a lot... calling it a ( Read more... )