its weird...u think that ur problems are UR problems, but then someone comes along wiht a problem almost entirely identical to urs. u listen to the bithcing, and u realize "shit, this is what im going throught. and u trade advice, etc, etc, etc. but in the end, it doesnt help. the inevitable still will happen. and u find out that alternatives that ( Read more... )

well, im a private now...i hate it. nobody really seems to care. and if they do care, they arent supportive. i dunno. ppl saying theyll leave me cause of this, but i think its best, and even better if they do leave. that means if i die, no one will care. i feel fine with that. its prolly better, it means that they couldnt stand being with me even ( Read more... )

so me an randi are back together, and i maybe joining the army. yeah. um...im happy about randi bein back with me, but i have mixed feelings about the army. i wanna do it, but i also dont. i wanna be able to marry randi earlier than if i have 3 years in the army, but i may have to marry her this june, which im all for, but i didnt think it would ( Read more... )

its been going worse, actually. instead of me and randi just "taking a break" we're actually broken up. but shes not actually acting like we're broken up, and stuffs getting lost in the translation. she says shes willing to work it out, but needs time to think, and wont talk about it, which is confusing the shit outta me, and..i duno, i feel like ( Read more... )

im confused ( Read more... )

"love is a mysterious thing, during our lives we encounter it on many different levels, but not until that one perfect moment do we finally experience the most precious of all love's forms, that of true love ( Read more... )

i feel really empty right now...adn sick...maybe this flu is a godsend, and it'll kill me...thatd be real nice. im starting to feel that all ive told myself is a lie. what that was, in a quote, is from uncle hubb in 2nd hand lions "that what a man needs to believe in isnt necisarily true. that good triumphs over evil, that true love is real." im ( Read more... )

okay, it was kinda both...dont ask how, just was. yeah. i dunno how this is gonna turn out, i dont wanna think about one possiblity...u can tell how its affecting me by what tim im updating at. i cant get any sleep...o well.

if what they say is true, than i dont really have much of a reason for anything anymore ( Read more... )

dear randi ( Read more... )