Today I woke up to Ryan's heavy breathing and the humm of the fan. It felt good and made me think of times that are gone now. As I got in the shower I felt...off balance. It was supposed to be you and me...forever and ever. Although I love him (more than I ever thought I could) He still isn't you and we don't have those memories together. I ( Read more... )

Well......life has gotten better. The begining of the break was horrible, my trip to medford sucked ass, portland....i cant talk about, but the last 48hrs have been amazing. I went to see my cousin in Roseburg and hung out with her friends....it was really nice. Ryan stayed at her house one night and we stayed up talking...all night....I have never ( Read more... )

I don't know how i feel. Connor and I ended our relationship today, 9 months and 1 day. I thought I would be okay when this happened. I knew I had been horrible to Connor and we had grown so far apart. Connor wants to be in portland and I cant blame anyone for that. I just..... I thought I would be ok.....

Everything has gone so quickly, this term, my life. It's all just been a blur and I've been on the sidewalk standing in the rain watching it occur. Like a car accident ( Read more... )

So I woke up friday with my neck in pain.....and not the kind I can tolerate like usual. SO I attempted to go to school, my lab teacher sent me home. I decided to go to the er because Urgent care slipped my mind completly and I had no more muscle drugs left from medford. Well....long story short I couldn't find any parking there, yelled really loud ( Read more... )

So...we were all at my grandmothers house last night...the crazy one (cuz that's all I have left) and donny had lots of people there. I was really, really tired and had felt sick to my stomach all day so I decided at about midnight to head back to moms. I didn't realize I had put the car in reverse and was talking to carly, who was sitting next to ( Read more... )

V-day was AWESOME! I loved the table....it was a blast..and then I hung out with Tobi and went to chinese! After that I came home, put on the l word, and talked to Carly. I am so glad I skipped class and had a good day, infact it was the best v-day ever!!!
Yesterday sucked ass...but that's what you get for having good days@

Well........v-day seems to be going well. I met up with jess, had fun blowing up condoms and setting up the table....and SNOW we had SNOW......so that totally makes my week happy!!!!!! I skipped today and yesterday..probably not a great idea but I don't fucking care. I am an adult (HA) that is responsible (double HA!) for my mistakes (me make a ( Read more... )

Today I was sitting outside of my program advisor persons office. They are getting ready for mid-term confr. for the program. I knew they were discussing students and I had a couple questions to ask. I overheard them talking about students that were not doing well in the program (ie. are not naturals, have no talent with children, people they would ( Read more... )

Did you know that it takes caffine seven hours to get out of your system...so if you drink a 20oz pepsi at 2 it will not be out of your system until nine. Interesting things you learn in line at Starbucks huh! This whole "overcoming shyness" thing is going ok. It's still very, very hard but I am trying my darndest ( Read more... )