its been a little while since ive written.. life has been hectic. paul came home on saturday, almost a week ago.. it doesnt seem like that long. im going to the staind/hinder/breaking benjamin concert tonight with my friend jerod. he's driving here now, but traffic on 64 is insane ..rush hour.. so we're missing hinder :( sad story.. i really wanted ( Read more... )

thank you for talking to me last night. the burden of that secret has been burning me up from the inside out and i know that its affecting my day, every day. yeah i should tell someone. but there's nobody to tell. he'll get away with it, probably not for the first time, or the last time. and in reality its partly my fault.. i shouldn't have let ( Read more... )

somewhere this river in my heart must end
i have built my trust in you
here i drown
longing for the truth to be a lie
where do your thoughts wander?
who do your memories involve?
tell me, assure me; its just me
i drown.
my broken heart stops beating and my pain will cease
floating to the heavens
your pure existence has ended mine

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i am not that girl ( Read more... )

for those of you who have had the opportunity to drink absinthe, you know that one shot of the green poison will satisfy any desire to be silly. two shots will get you drunk. and three shots will make you stupid ( Read more... )

what i dont know cant hurt me right? (this phrase is so easily thrown around and i dont believe it for a second) however, what i do know changes everything ( Read more... )

such a perfect day. why blister it with loneliness after the ending of my mom's visit? does spending time with ones you love heal the desire to see them or simply make it worse? its amazing how quickly my summer is fading and the coolness of fall seems to be spreading over this city like a plague ( Read more... )

i shiver ( Read more... )

just when i think i've got things figured out, my life takes a mild spin and changes my expectations up a little. i have not been able to tell myself how something is going to turn out, and have it happen just as planned. it seems god knows whats best for me and makes the final call in all decisions made ( Read more... )

so thanks to mike, i am switching over. xanga is no longer my journal of choice, because of all the extra benefits live journal offers. stay tuned for some rockin entrees ;)
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