i have been ignoring this place, i appologize a trillion times.... hokay so here's what's up... my life is turning into the pathetic life of a girlfriend, it's fuckin ridiculus, since when have i ever been a girl?? now my life is all, sorry can't hang out this weekend, tim is comin up.... sorry can't hang out next weekend im hangin out with tim ( Read more... )

I just realized how seldom i update this baby, even tho i sometimes have the time.... well mybe that is because my life is increasingly boring... sad, but true.... Jisland is back in town, but she is better than she used to be, less annoying... maybe that's just cuz i have had such a nice long break from contact.... hhm that was mean, true, but ( Read more... )

i think i'm finally coming to the realization that the me i have right now is the only person i will ever be, unless i find someone or something to push me to grow and succeed in growth... to do that i have to actually break down a barrier or two.. the problem is that i dont know where the barriers start and i end... my walls have become so thick ( Read more... )

http://www.big-boys.com/articles/topdui.html

it just about made my life <3

Personality Disorder Test Results Paranoid |||||||||||| 46% Schizoid |||||||||||| 46% Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||| 78% Antisocial |||||||||||| 50% Borderline |||||||||||||||| 62% Histrionic |||||| 26% Narcissistic |||||| 22% Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 70% Dependent |||||||||||| 46% Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||| 42% ( Read more... )

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Getting knocked up...twice.

Get your resolution here

aright so i flew in to davis yesterday. moved out half of my stuff, and this morning we moved out the rest of it. so i am sitting in a mostly emtpy room contimplating, wishing we had left my tv here. My folks said that i have until the end of the week to change my mind. and if i do they will send me a check. and my grandpa will take me shopping ( Read more... )

but it's my own damn fault so whatever.

and that's all that it is. i cannot see myself in any other state or mind this is how i am, and who i am.. and i am glad. who cares. i don't know what is happening and what is going on but i will make my peace. and i have emotion and it is so strange. i wonder if my heart is thawing, that would take some time though. i am so excited to be in ( Read more... )