Well I'm now 18. yesterday was a mixture of highs and lows. I got 3 DVDs from my mom and a shitload of chocolate. i got hum aapke hain koun and mohobbatein and DDLJ. I love 'em!! Kim and David and my dad and some relative called me. but no one from 'sc called me. and that kinda pissed me off. but oh well, what can you do? i got an indian dress, but ( Read more... )

I talked to ming last night for a bit. i'm so happy. my mom got another battery and this one actually lasts like normal! i'm totally stoked. the other one sucked badly. so ming and i were talkig and she really does want me to live with her. and i love her, but it'd be too wierd. and david is kind of guy who's so "unusually comfortable" that he ( Read more... )

Dont know why but suddenly I feel very lonely...sigh.

Saturday night after Ash and I came back from having dinner and there was a surprise party waiting for me! it was really cool and sweet. i walked in and there were david and steve in leis and tooting horns. before i saw the sign, i really thought they had found the leis and were joking around. i was like how cute. and then someone said more ppl ( Read more... )

Well 9 days til my flight. And only 5 days until my birthday. Nothing is happening. Tonight I'll have dinner with Ashlie and though I love her. I feel terrible about the Rina thing. And I won't be able to help but feel like a poor man's Rina. How petty and stupid right? Right. Well, that doesn't change anything unfortunately. Goddamn it, why is ( Read more... )

I talked to Lindsay last night and it really made me wish that Ming and I were really close and got along. we have way too much shit between us. and i hate it, i wish we could get along fabulously like her and lindsay do. sigh. and it really blows because i don't think it'll ever change. i mean she'll always resent me, even subconsciously and even ( Read more... )

So david taught me how to fire a gun. well only a paint gun and a beebee gun. i'm an absurdly, scaryily good shot. we put up this picture of david (the OTHER one) and i shot at his face. and i got some pretty scary shots in. middle of forehead, eye, hair, nose, mouth...eerrie. i felt really bad though. and it didn't diminish my like/love for the ( Read more... )

Before my lil episode last night, i was planning on writing about what i did with jenny twining and deanna from southbay. friday i drove over to see 'em. they both dont 'have their licenses. crazy! other ppl like me in the world. it was wierd being the only one with a license rather than the only one without. nice weird. deanna's married. with a 9 ( Read more... )

Smoothjazzkilla: -lo ( Read more... )

PUSH didnt' post it, but i say fuck 'em. I wrote if for myself and no one else ( Read more... )