I have gotten out of the habit of posting here. Hmm. Probably has something to do with working graveyards and my schedule being all screwed up. Well that and I have found other things to occupy my time of late. Sleep...coffee...mudding, etc. I should probably go out and be more social but hey. I am getting in the habit of going out regularly with a ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in quit awhile. Odd. I guess I have just had alot on my mind lately. Which is fine. Sometimes it is good to be occupied with things. But of late it has been stressful things. Some are stupid but stress me none the less. I guess I am just tired of everyone wanting in my business. It seems nothing I do lately my friends approve of. ( Read more... )

I was asked last night, about my expectations for an upcoming trip. Well a trip I hope to make. The question just struck me funny. Oddly enough, I don't have any *real* expectations. The only thing I would like...maybe even hope for is a chance to be happy. Even if just for a short while *shrug* That is alot for me to even think about, let alone ( Read more... )

Bah. Ok I am tired after going to bed late. (like 2:30amish too late). As always my own fault, but had a lot on my mind. Still do. I have plans this weekend. I suppose I am looking forward to them. Mainly because they are a nice escape from reality and I will hopefully be able to relax a bit. I guess we will see. At least I will get to drink some ( Read more... )

Ok so today has not started out too well. Or didn't start out well. Whatever. First off I slept like hell. (big surprise eh) That resulted in me feeling rather ill upon waking up. No big deal, got past that. But apparently my mom's car is not being cooperative. It has a flat for one, and not sure about the rest. This is not the end of the world and ( Read more... )

Ok so I need to go to bed. I was told to do what I need to do then go to bed. I want to go to bed, but I can't yet. I have a bit of pent up nervous energy. What is scary is this: I have *no* clue why I have this energy. I should be tired. Work was long and the night a bit long. Perhaps it was the telephone call I got. The one that put a big smile ( Read more... )

I love days that are good bad good. Really...I do. Well maybe not really. Of late, my life has taken a bit of an up turn. I smile a bit more, laugh some, even let myself relax or feel somewhat happy. I mean sheeshe. Amazing I let *that* happen ( Read more... )

Ok....a very interesting possibility arose for me last night. The opportunity to go visit someone very important to me is on the horizon. I fear getting my hopes up and then not being able to go. That...would suck..MUCHLY. I would really like to see him ( Read more... )

Ahhh. Just a few short words before I go to bed. Early for once. Why? Well because I have to go back to work tomorrow. I have basically missed the last week since I was sick. My sleep pattern/habits are all screwed up by that, and I fear I will have trouble falling asleep. So, to bed early I go. This is good, and bad. Hence...I cover it ( Read more... )

What can I say about these things other then that they suck. Especially when they coincide. I mean they suck when they are by themselves, but this weekend proved how much the togetherness aspect sucked. But, the weekend (holiday as it may be) is over. My cold however, remains, and with a vengeance at that. I was feeling good on Sunday night, and I ( Read more... )