Sometimes I feel like I am completely lost and I am still very unsure of fate. I mean I know things are going well but at the same time everything around me feels like it is taking a dive ( Read more... )

 I love my girlfriend more than the world, But it scares me to death that she has shown little to no emotion about one of the most serious issues in my life. I know that it is a lot to take in, and a whole lot to think about but something has got to give. I know that she is trying to be the strong one, but unless or untill she shows any emotion ( Read more... )

Where is the ferryman?
I have coin in hand.
Enough for the ride away.
From this hell that im in.
Where do you go?
When your begging for death.
When all hope is lost.
And you can't see the best.
Ferryman!
Ferryman!
I'm calling for you.
Hear the coins jingling?
That is your cue.
Pick me up.
Take me away.
I will trade your hell for this one.
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Sliced up skin
Dreamed within
Fucked up feeling
Within myself
Death approches
Cant stop dying
No more living
Take me away
Where pain isn't even
Where feelings stop
And so does breathing
Why are you waiting?
What case are you making?
Here for the taking
Any moment now
I'm waiting.....

Where do I run to?
Where do I hide?
When this feeling comes from inside.
I just want to curl up.
I just want to die.
Can I create a cave?
Where no one can see.
My hideous creature.
It lurks within me.
I'm a side show.
A freak.
Where is the beauty?
Not in my flesh.
I sit here alone.
Scared to death.

10/03/10- Georgies alibi in St. Petersburg FL ( Read more... )

When does the world stop spinning and life become irrelevant?
When do me get to cry over spilled milk and jump in the puddles?
Stop worrying about bills and just be ourselves once again?
Cancer has changed my heart and my mind.
I shall revert back to the inner child of mine.
Will you join me?
For life is too short and our journey is long.
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