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Ch-Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes
So this whole miscarriage thing has made me realize a lot of things in my life. It's made me realize for one, how badly I want to be a mother. I mean I knew that to begin with, and when I got pregnant it was just like... God. The moment I'd been waiting for for so long. And now that I've lost my baby, I feel like... Like I'm back where I started. ( Read more... ) -
Our Christmas
So Christmas didn't turn out the way we had expected or planned it to, but it wasn't bad. We woke up, got showered and dressed, and headed out to Josh's sister Mandi's house to watch her son and stepson open up their presents. We stayed for a while to help Caden and Christian set up their game systems (they got a PS3 and a Wii), played with them ( Read more... ) -
So, this is Christmas
Merry Christmas, everyone. This Christmas is not what I expected it to be, but really, what Christmas is? Josh and I are doing okay. The sadness comes, and it goes. Every day we are one step closer to moving on. Physically, I feel fine. Emotionally, I'm getting better all the time. I am sad that I won't get to see my side of the family this ( Read more... ) -
Christmas
I was telling Josh last night about the message board community on iVillage.com that I had joined when I found out I was pregnant. It was a board for women due in August of 2008, and in it there was a section where you could post if you had lost your baby. I remember I would scan that part to offer condolences to my fellow members, but secretly I ( Read more... ) -
Back here...
Well, it's back to posting in this journal for the time being. I have been posting in my pregnancy journal, and as it turns out I am no longer pregnant. Josh and I lost the baby this weekend ( Read more... ) -
Year In Review
Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2007. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your "Year In Review"
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Oh, baby!
I'm not going to beat around the bush.
I'M PREGNANT.
