Fcuk I kno how late it is n I kno how retarded I've been but for Christ's Sake I want him n i wish hed just say that he wants me too... It makes me soo mad that he wont respond n makes me feel so unhot n unwanted... he hasnt txted he hasnt called... I feel ugly n just undesirable. Cuz lets be honest n not avoid the inevitable... for christ's sake ( Read more... )

dude, summer is almost over n i couldnt b more depressed. it feels like a waste, but ah well. life is monotonous n i luv it... wish boys were more exciting however... very depressing. i miss camp alot n all the ppl n such... so paige if u kno like neones info, TELL ME!! n im gonna send like abunch of camp ppl notes/pics when i get a phone for gods ( Read more... )

i look cute today hehehe i want to feel pretty ya kno? lol o well nuthin new... i think i might have a chance. hopefully. That would kickass. half the ppl here r annoying but some r pretty cool... god i need to do something crazy n i miss you all ALOT :( boohoo for me being different from like everyone here... AGH i wanna scream. shit on that. lol ( Read more... )

I swear i have add. either that or bipolarity... im sooo bored/depressed unpeu vers ma vie... c'est triste.... So everytime im like yay, score one for me, theres something to kick me in the ass... thank you SOO much. So im stuck here feeling incredibly alone, missing my girlies... n actually im talkin to this dude who would be parfait pour mon ( Read more... )

Screw this. lol nah jk. Actually the whole situation here has been relatively resolved!! UPDATES: im super TIRED.... um mark n i are way cool...:) hahaha see i have this theory that boys are part sex and part mind. usually the sex part is larger/more powerful ;) n w/ mark- i am willing to settle for his sex part. which im almost confident can be ( Read more... )

Hey still at the good ol' St. Olaf! haha um i feel bipolar. One second, im all social, happy, flirty, but then the next minute i have to get away n i want to scream... im so sad bout alot of shit here already too... i feel like everyone likes me but hates me. then i also feel alone cuz the only ppl are ones that like just following me... but idk ( Read more... )

Hey all: out in no-where Minnesota. jk. well not really. kinda the whole nerdy-band camp bit... id say like 2/3 are band/choir/orchestra geeks... then there are a few who would actually qualify as gorgey. which would be Mark, weirdly... goddamn i wanna tap that lol. and then there Thomas who OMG is now my fav gay buddy ever. sorry geb, but you ( Read more... )

AHH TODAY IS FIELD DAY!! god i miss field day. when everyone actually liked it. its like u hit 6th grade n then ppl just start to suck... literally they suck the fun out of stuff... i LOVE hillsdale. its so old n it has this smell that i couldnt ever forget. n the teachers- thats wut really makes u remember it. they always smother you in hugs n ( Read more... )

Hello all. well i know i havent updated in quite a while but here i am. second to last day and i "missed my bus" so ma mere let me come with her to work 2day!! YAY! aww i love hillsdale! lol god bless those free-thinkers of the 60s n 70s... honestly what would hillsdale be without their dividers instead of walls??? haha. soooo lately ive just hated ( Read more... )

Hey there... argh sooo tired of school. like 8 days left. ARGH my life is sooo damn stressful!!!! no actually it isnt. i just make it that way cuz i hate everything in it. seriously everyones just annoying n i want new ppl, new places, new experiences. im just soo fucking tired of my life!!! i just dont love all the ppl i used to. sucks for u if ( Read more... )