Just for the record, I am so damn glad you are out of my life.

I AM FREE

I will not let all the damage you did follow me into 2010.

I will do my best to forget you.

I will do my best to forgive you.

I will overcome all the bullshit.

But overall, I will succeed.

It was so easy in the beginning
but now, what to do about you?

Do I love you?
Do I hate you?
What do I do about you?

Like a bad surprise that I can't turn away from
I don't want to know the truth
So, what is there to do about you?

You are my past and partially my present
but you're a far cry from what my future will be.
What can I do about you?

I should ( Read more... )

I wonder often what motivates others to change. For the better and for the worse. Is it a complete dislike of one's self? Is it an outside force putting pressure onto a person? Is it a never ending quest to fill some void opened deep inside? I wish I had the answers.

I wish I knew what turns a perfectly motivated, fun, happy, healthy, curious human ( Read more... )

but though you're still with me, I've been alone all along."

In the stillness and silence of the night, I find myself wanting you. Although, I'm not sure if I'm wanting you or just equating you with the only thing I've ever known of intimacy. Such is a double-edged sword. "Your presence still lingers here, and it won't leave me alone." The things ( Read more... )

I'm kinda angry at myself b/c I can't sleep normal hours anymore. I just want to start living normal hours. Go to bed at Midnight, wake up at 8, and do what I need to do.

The more as the days go by, the more that I start this new school year, the more I try to get on top of things, I just have to believe that this is all bringing me closer to my ( Read more... )

I sometimes wake up to find that I'm not really sure where I am.  Not literally, but in a directional sense. I lost so much of my understanding, direction, and self in the last little while that it's almost like wading through snow in order to try to figure it all out again ( Read more... )

My goals:

- Make Chancellor's or Dean's list for Spring 2008
- Improve my relationship with and understanding of God
- Improve my health
- Eat better foods that are healthier and closer to natural (ex. a little debbie cake is neither healthy nor natural and therefore will probably be out)
- Open an IRA
- Make some money for a change
- Pledge and make it ( Read more... )

Welcome 2008! I'm glad I had no idea where I planned to be when I was 21 and in the year 2008. I think that if I had, I'd be sorely disappointed with myself.

I'm emotionally looking for a turn around. I'm getting tired of the place that I'm in and I'm almost to the point where I'm ready to take a stand. I'm ready to remember who I am.

I don't ( Read more... )

So here I am. Single. Yet again. Single and 21. It's odd how I'm feeling...I'm sad, I'm indifferent, I'm scared, I'm relieved, I'm hurt..... I've learned a lot through this whole experience. I've learned that I have a huge heart. I can love unconditionally without regret or deliberation. I'm an attractive person. Men will look at me and think I'm ( Read more... )

I am amazed by you ( Read more... )