don't take me for a fool. i would much rather take straight-forward rejection than insincere kindness masked as an act of pity.

my thoughts run more than 350 kph that i can't manage to type up a single coherent sentence. its all blurbs and phrases that would probably mean nothing in a few months time. im just bothered by the thought that i might turn user-friendly on someone just because i need a stepping stone. and how else could i fluff the statement, he is so off from my ( Read more... )

i feel as though some friends mean more to me than i to them. cause i really cherish all my friendships and only a few are reciprocating. i don't mean to think badly of people, but they give off the impression that they ARE the centre of everyone's attention/affection. they feel they're like the sun in acting like they're the centre of the universe ( Read more... )

i have been trying to get some shut eye for almost four hours now, to no avail. i tried almost everything: lavender-jasmine soothing lotion, chamomile tea, advil. i even tried watching tv in the hopes of tiring my eyelids to slumber. but damn it, nothing works.

this might just be my first real insomniatic* episode. i know some people loosely refer ( Read more... )

i forget how to turn off those automatic facebook alerts whenever i update my lj. so i have to click the "hide story" button from now on. its annoying. it defeats my purpose of keeping this journal.

so, the ceremonial stowing away of binders, filing this year's notes, and arranging text books fit for dust collection is almost over. i've always found it therapeutic to physically see what i have gone through in terms of scribbles and lecture slides, and to put them away [hopefully permanently] into the shelf that says "past notes." of all the ( Read more... )

i went to the hospital with my sister for her pre-op session the other day; she's having a tonsillectomy on the 29th. i'm really scared for her. her medical/dental file is probably three times as thick as mine [if not more] cause of unfortunate root canals, sleep tests, and others. and now this adds to the pile ( Read more... )

i saw this postcard two days after i was hired. i got scared.


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i feel powerless ( Read more... )

im going to class in 10 minutes, and right now im studying for a potential pop quiz.
i shit you not, this is a real slide from my lecture notes.

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