Breaking my own back

[kate_spencer]

The older I get the more I realize that I'm guilty of a lot of self sabotage.

I run, yoga and diet my way to lose weight and as soon as people start noticing and commenting on it then I screw it all by starting to eat like crap again or skipping my workouts.
It's like I don't want to lose the weight. Right now I can blame things that don't go my way

Comments

[waltzmatildah]

I don't really think we've come to any clear reasons or solutions, mainly just hangovers. SO MUCH TRUTH.

♥

[eska818]

I relate to this, and offer my hugs and positive thoughts and hope that you can break your own cycle. -hugs-

[kickthehobbit]

God, this is such a painful realization to make, and it's something you write about really well.

[halfshellvenus]

I went through something similar to this years ago. Men didn't seem attracted to anything other than the surface, and I was wary of being used and tired of getting hit on. At some point, I asked myself whether being overweight was saving me from being the target of that aggressive sexual interest, and realized that it wasn't.

Maybe that would be worth thinking about? Are you keeping something uncomfortable at arm's length, something that bothers you more than the fear of feeling unattractive and unloveable?

[eternal_ot]

Could relate to this a lot...I lolled at the last line..Best wishes..hope you lose it never to gain..;)