This is the closest to the truth that I can get ( Read more... )

Doesn't it make you feel just kind of sad?

Nothing much of importance to share, just having a time and feeling things that need to be figured out, whatever that means. This has been a supremely hard week and I am pretty sure a day didn't pass where I wasn't at some point for some moment crying in public. That's not a problem-- it's just what happened. That's okay. We all have those weeks, ( Read more... )

I am so deep inside my head right now that I feel like I'm burying myself alive.

There's this part of me that just wishes I knew how to be the girlfriend I was to everyone else to the person who finally deserves it. Yeah, there was a toilet paper castle and so many dinners and so much fun and the hotel room for JUST HIM for just working, etc, and yet this week I think I realized that the pain I felt from the last blow was so ( Read more... )

I don't know if seeing something means that something is true... or if it means there's still a way to turn it into something else.

Even though I'm super happy and well aware of how ridiculously lucky I am, I still have these days where I just want to hide under the covers and hide. Today was that kind of day. And it just would have been nice to have someone here waiting to just sit with me in the quiet... let me be a little bit sad.

I really need to just get a cat.

Felt very inspired today in a quiet way, moved on a deep level that there is something great I want to do. I'm not sure what this great thing is quite yet, but I can feel it deep within me.

If you had asked me 6 years ago if this was even a remote possibility of my life, I would have said "Well, of course it is! I am totally gonna date him and we'll makey outey all the time." But I would have been joking. Pretty incredible that this is my real life, and that this is really happening ( Read more... )

My faaaaaaaace!!!!

At least my room is cleeeean.