So I didn't eat yesterday, big deal..not. But at church this morning I passed the fkkk out. They called an ambulance and the police and fire department and everything showed up. It was so embarrassing. I was so terrified that everyone was going to find out and that they'd put me into treatment. That was my main focus the whole time. My mom told the ( Read more... )

This has absolutely been the toughest day for me. I've been noticing my sister losing weight recently, and I saw her go to the back bathroom after dinner and I sat in the closet and listened to her throw it up. My baby sister. My sweet little baby sister that i fucked up with my crazy obsessions. I did this to her, and I don't know what to do. I ( Read more... )

Warning: I'm just going to ramble probably ha.
This whole thing is getting worse. It's to the point where I just don't even want to be here anymore, but I'd never do anything too drastic. I'm really hoping to get this elliptical in my room. First, my mom was going to buy it and then she was going to make me pay half and now she doesn't think she ( Read more... )

well, I guess I'm starting ABC today. Wish me luck<3

Breakfast - 1/2 cup Whole Grain Cheerios (55)
Lunch- nothing for lunch
Dinner- 1/4 Lean Cuisine Pepperoni Pizza (87.5)
Snacks- 1 cup grapes (60), Starbucks Light Mocha Frapp (100)

= 302.5

Well, the last few days haven't been bad at all. I've lost seven or eight pounds, which i understand is mostly water weight. But either way, helps to keep me going, yeah? I've been staying under 500 calories a day. Today, i was at 110 total. I would eat a little more, but i just feel sick. I'm not even hungry. Bad news, last night, i binged on ALL ( Read more... )

I ate...
(and this is according to CalorieCount.com)

Angel food cake (140)
M&Ms (472) <----- blehhh :(
Hamburger, no bread (140)
2 powdered donettes (120) <------ :/
3 Hostess Mini Crullers (270) <-----!!!!!!! i need to work on this.
Sugar free jello cup (5)
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(1,147)

burned: 511 (So far!)
i have all night<3

I'm too disgusted with myself to post anything in this journal.

I've really slacked off the last week or so. I need to get back on track :/

I don't know how I've done it, but I've made it to my lowest weight since before i was put on a steriod when i was little. I haven't eaten in over 48 hours and it's strange. I'm not even hungry at all. My stomach hasn't even growled. I haven't been sleeping much either. The last two days I've stayed up all night and went walking four miles at 5:00 ( Read more... )