I used to be the doyenne of my life.  However, lately I have lost my impetus and now feel as though I'm a tatterdemaliion.  Just as a person can easily be a prestidigitator, i find that I cna easily be excoriated.  Through minutiae depravity I am equal to and juxtaposed next to the person accused of applejacking.  I must try to get to my pied-a- ( Read more... )

I seem to always give in to what everyone else wants.  I never want to hurt them.  In the process I become trapped.  The world around me is going black, the air in my lungs is stiffled, the weights on my shoulders are heavy ( Read more... )

Its been a year since I posted last!  WHOOPS ( Read more... )

Ah... it is a new year... 2008.  Never figured I'd be where I am now more-or-less even alive in 2008.  In high school 2008 was a LONG ways off... now in 2 years it'll be 2010!  CRAZY ( Read more... )

Hrmm....
What makes you happy?  I'm just curious because I thought I could be happy alone.  Then I thought I would be happy with someone... I don't know if I've found that one... It was great at the beginning as it usually is... now I feel like I'm in the same rut.
It's life I guess... a never ending cycle... it always comes back to haunt you.
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Well today finally feels like summer.  I went out for lunch today and the thermometer in my truck said it was 76... it felt a lot hotter than that, but I'm not one to complain (all that much).

Yesterday I met with the S/O.  It was a sad meeting because I was giving him my love... my 5 year old puppy, that because of current circumstances, and the ( Read more... )

The trip....

So the weekend after Valentine's day (actually we left Valentine's day), I started my commute to Arizona.  It was a long drive, and there were a few bumps along the way (i.e. me being too tired to drive at all on the way down, taking the LONGEST and quite possibly the scariest route through the mountains).  But we got there non-the-less ( Read more... )

I know I need to post... and I will... I just have to find some time in my "way to stressed out" life.  I will capitalize later on it... but in a nut shell the s/o is still fighting over the divorce, still threatening me and still making me feel about -><- that big.  Oh well... sooner or later he'll grow up *I hope*... 12 more days and the cast ( Read more... )

I finally had my surgery... after having it postponed almost a week because Dr. was sick. But its all fine and dandy.  Sounds like it wasn't as bad as they had thought.  They found both ends of the ligaments, and was only under the knife for 45 minutes.  How cool is that ( Read more... )

First of all I want to say CONGRATULATIONS to 
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