I've never been hit harder, not physically, just mentally and emotionally. I don't really know what to do anymore. I feel scared? I'm shaking. This is stupid. Thank God for Ange.

fuck :'(

Last night might've been the most fun I've had in a while. Went "party hopping" with Ange. Went from Sausage's house to Hartman's. Honestly the funniest night of my life. It's crazy how so many people I know are going/have gone to Iraq and it fear never leaves. Poor Josh got the fuck beat out of him last night (i.e. his head getting slammed off of ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated in 20 weeks. That's 5 months (a.k.a long ass time) My life has changed, a lot. And I couldn't be happier. I started doing things for myself and not caring about what other people thought or continue to think. I'm my own person, with my own life, making my owns choices and I will keep on doing that. Fuck the haters ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm either going to breakdown or freak out.
I don't want either to happen.
This is going to really, really suck :'(

Do you ever feel like there are so many things going wrong, but you're the only one who can fix it? It's like I'm Superman and everything I try is like kryptonite to me. Things with Brett are just slowly getting worse. Everyday we fight, and not a day goes by where one of us isn't upset with the other. I ask if this is something we should continue ( Read more... )

so August 19th 2001 I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes. Which means today was my 7th year..anniversary? I say anniversary like it's a good thing..pause not. I realized tonight as I was going with my family to Canal Fest that no one in my family remembered. It wasn't like them..well last year I was at camp so I really don't know. It was just weird ( Read more... )

ok not really..but whatever I like saying it.

canal fest pageant was a lot of fun. I'm glad I ended up doing it, and the girls were pretty cool. I made top 5, but didn't place..not too shabby for my first time doing it. I'm kinda glad I didn't win. I don't think I'd want to be at Canal Fest everyday for hours on end...even though I am at night. ( Read more... )

the sad thing is is that even when he leaves, my friends still won't talk to me..

I don't think I'm scared to graduate.

So Brett comes home in 4 days, and after everything that's happened...I just hope it's not weird. I'm so excited to see him, but at the same time I can't trust him. I feel like a mom asking him 21 questions all the time, but I'm just protective, and nervous, and jealous. I always find myself thinking I'm acting stupid, but then I think that any ( Read more... )