Sometimes I feel like I set my own standards too high. Not so much in terms of other people but more like for myself. I just feel like I could be this hot sexy bitch and I'm not. I feel like I should've been this genius with straight A's but I didn't get that either. I feel like I regret about every word that comes out of my mouth, every ( Read more... )

For the past few nights I have encountered a raccoon. He seems to live in the tree next to the house. He creeps me out all the time with his rustling in the dark bush. I hope it doesn't have rabies, other than that its a welcome neighbor.

My sister hasn't been too well since she has given birth. She went to the doctor today and they told her that she still has some placenta in her vagina so she has to get surgery. I feel really bad that she has to go to surgery but my grandmother had the same thing so it is a hereditary trait. I'm sure she'll be ok I'm just worried about her. ( Read more... )

I'm at Casey's living with three other guys besides the two of us. Now I like these three guys they are easy to get along with, close to my age, I feel comfortable enough to live with them. Its also not too bad because they're gone for two or three days at a time. I thought since it was a work day noone would be home so I went into the attic to ( Read more... )

For some reason all week I haven't been able to stop thinking about sex. It sucks though cuz theres nothing I can do about it. Damn Hormones!!

well I got my new laptop today. It's just like the laptop my school loaned me. I actually bought it through a deal with the school and dell. It was already set up so I didn't have to do anything which I'm very happy about. I also like that it is wireless capable so I'm actually online by stealing a signal from someone in the neighborhood. I ( Read more... )

well I've convinced myself I have lyme disease. I've looked at alot of what the symptoms are and out of a list of 8 I had 7 and I didn't know if I've been having fevers or not because I haven't checked. I tried making an appointment today to get it checked out but they didn't have anything available until next friday so I'm going to have to wait ( Read more... )

Being in NY makes me depressed. It brings me back to all the bull shit I had to deal with in highschool and when I had to live with my dad. Of course I'm living with my dad now but thats not the point. When I'm here I don't feel like I have a focus. I feel like my frustrations block me from accomplishing what needs to get done. I guess I can't ( Read more... )

Saturday and Sunday night weren't as good as Friday, to say the least. Rob had a heart attack the other day and he shouldn't be drinking or smoking, however he still does both. He was acting really rambunctious on saturday. He drank a bottle of wine on top of his meds hes taking which shouldn't be mixed with alcohol. Then he went out to the ( Read more... )

Well the party went really well on friday! A nice amount of people showed up which is a big surprise when you look at my past parties. There were only a couple casualties. Michelle got really sick and so did brian, but everyone helped Michelle and Kara took care of brian. the other two casualties that happened were one of Scott's antique chairs ( Read more... )