I'm going to be in Santee (San Diego) California until the 25th!!!!!

I love you

sometimes there are no excuses for my actions.

work has been going great. schools out til january 28th. finished all my classes with A's. still no christmas shopping done. i miss my love. i feel empty.

sooo i go out and do extremely stupid things. and regret them in the morning. AWESOME.

the other day at work i took a lady's body to the morgue who had no one to claim her... i don't ever want to feel like i have no one in the world.

i miss you so much

So, I feel like my heart and my head are being pulled in different directions. How can you break up with someone you care about so much because you think it's a good idea because your "not right" and you need help because you just came home from a war zone? AND THEN.. tell them two days later it was a harsh descision and you didn't mean it and you ( Read more... )

I have spent the last two days in bed. Why? Because I am, in fact, in a big mess. I don't know why I do the things I do sometimes. There is no excuse for me. Well, I mean.. I know why I do them, but why would I take that chance and hurt someone for a one night thing every other week? I don't even LIKE him.. he's engaged. I know it's never going ( Read more... )

Omg it has been quite a while since I have updated. I actually forgot my password for a long time and couldn't even read other's FO's posts. But I am back and have reset the PW so I figure this is good therapy to get everything out. School has pretty much been a waste of time lately, after being dismissed from the RN program since I couldn't score ( Read more... )

So it has been a long while since I've wrote in this. It has been 3 months since Dan has been in Iraq. It is so hard to be strong for him and us, but I believe it will make us both stronger in the end. He's already gotten hit by 2 IED's and luckily he's ok but really shaken up. I try not to watch the news & follow the war but how can I not when ( Read more... )

Wasting my time ( Read more... )

A lil sumthin ( Read more... )

Silver05: hey you....i know you're not around and prolly won't get this for awhile but i'm actually leavin today for iraq...you'll hear from me when i actually get stationary...i really do miss you right now and i cannot wait to see you again..i hope to talk to ya soon but i guess be good or somethin idk...i do miss you alot you're always on my ( Read more... )