i saw the movie Water last night. and tonight i saw Half Nelson.  and i was reminded again why i love the medium of film. i love it because it can bring to light a beauty that cannot be captured with language.  i could try to describe them to you.  i have been trying in my head since i saw them. and truthfully? there are no words.

just watch

dear mommy, 
thanks for your e-mail...it was such a great surprise! i hardly ever get personal e-mails anymore. they're almost always business.  i can't wait to get home. it sounds so beautiful. it's been beautiful in every other season, spring should, naturally, be most beautiful.  it's been snowing here. snowing and snowing and snowing.  ( Read more... )

KT, I'm so glad you're coming home soon--it is so beautiful here--I keep thinking of you on the drive to Santa Rosa in the mornings!  It has been raining for a week!  And even though I'm so tired of being out in the cold wet,  the colors are breathtaking!  The backdrop of the black jagged hills show more or less through the drapes of mist, and the ( Read more... )

|…as we forgive those who trespass against us|
my Good Shepherd has been toying with me lately.  He has been taking all my toys away and i have been pouting.  this morning as i walked into the portico of my family’s home, i saw the table set beautifully at the front of the sanctuary. i will be forgoing that i thought to myself as i turned down the ( Read more... )

i didn't hear you say you're sorry
the fault must be mine
i wish you all the best of luck
at finding somebody more like you

you said you'd love me always, truly
i must have changed
cause you don't need me like you used to
i hope you find somebody more like you

i hope you finally find someone
someone that you trust
and give him everything
ihope you ( Read more... )

i have decided to make a post about my top 5. it might not be for a few days because i want to sit with it a while first.  i will tell each of you, five most important people in my life right now, how much i love you, and need you. and why. and i'm going to give you some songs and perhaps some other accessories as well.  i am considering combining ( Read more... )

|I|
have decided to stop dotting my ‘i’s. my handwriting looks prettier, neater (as in “tidier” not “spiffier”) and more quirky. overall, i feel it was a good decision.

|my|
hands smell like play-dough. hip hip hurray for CE classes.
(and by “CE,” i mean “preschool”)

the sky wore a long skirt that day. thick and white and frothy, like a spectral wedding dress.  the sea was in a black and foul temper, but brought pretty pieces of glass to my feet all the same.  i kept good company with them that day, the sea and the sky.  i amused myself taking pictures while the sea poked fun at the yawning gulls. washing up ( Read more... )

perish every fond ambition,
all i've sought or hoped or known.
yet how rich is my condition!
God and heaven are still my own.

"I miss your old beau's voice on that one..." sharyn said when we'd finished practicing.
"yeah. me too"
"it was really good for his voice."
"i know....this is one of the ones we sang for the longest together, back from when i was ( Read more... )

|four people|
are sitting, squished together on one couch, grinning and laughing a little at me from my desktop.  the two that i know well are silly silly mixed up people. the third, that i know a little well, is only a very little less silly and mixed up. and i think the discrepancy is merely that i have known this person only so little a while.  ( Read more... )