ash and i had another tearful conversation last night where we kept setting eachother off because we both felt responsible for the others' emotions even though rationally, we knew we weren't. she is scared that i'll be miserable once i move and resent her for having to make the sacrifices i've made to make our relationship possible. i'm scared that ( Read more... )

Excerpt from Max Brooks' World War Z:

One thing those New Dealers did better than any generation in American history was find and harvest the right tools and talent.

Tools and talent?

A term my son had heard once in a movie. I found it described our reconstruction efforts rathers well. "Talent" describes the potential workforce, its level of ( Read more... )

i played with trying to plan things out on the calendar this morning. the next few weeks are going to be full and empty all at the same time ( Read more... )

Excerpt from The Scandal of Pleasure by Wendy Steiner:

"In her 1977 book On Photography, [Susan Sontag] argues that 'pornographic images tend to subtract feeling from something we experience at first hand and the feelings they do arouse are, largely, not those we have in real life.' Photography 'recycles' the real, transforming its meaning and ( Read more... )

"so what do you do in the sca ( Read more... )

on saturday, i attended julie's birthday celebration. we got there a little early and i ended up seated on the booth side near the center of the table. despite my physical position, i felt very outsider. the conversation focused on pennsic and SCA politics, which a am fringely familiar with, but not invested in. so that when people were vehemently ( Read more... )

ash put druid to sleep last night. she found instructions to create a carbon dioxide rich chamber using baking soda and vinegar to slowly reduce him to unconsciousness before adding greater amounts to ensure that he wouldn't wake back up. she gave him a chicken bone and laid him on his fleece hammock in a small tupperware, then she placed that ( Read more... )

i fell in love again this weekend. i felt opened right up and warm down to my bones. i felt deeply relaxed and safe and cared for ( Read more... )

i woke up cussing this morning. cussed at the mirror. cussed in the shower. cussed out the cat underfoot. cussed while pulling out of the drive. cussed while marveling at the green grasses and yellow flowers lining the road ( Read more... )

a little after midnight last night ash and i heard a man screaming behind the townhouse. it sounded like at least three guys were back there and one was very scared and angry. he was yelling about being held down in the mud. i was bracing myself for a pop. there was a slight quiet where a pop should have been. my walls are too thin and i was scared ( Read more... )