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[katie_keysburg]

I got an email just before lunch that our highland games event at the college tomorrow is cancelled due to rain. So I'm happy about that because I have a lovely rainy weekend to myself. I have plenty of stuff to do: make chili, do laundry, hit the gym, write fic, otherwise work on my blogs... but I have no where to be and that is a lovely thing

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[phrassie]

You're going to have a good birthday. I just have a good feeling about that!! ;-)

I think you're absolutely within your right not to call your mom. And I know you'll probably go through 20 shades of guilt over it. But honestly, even in a both-people-make-effort relationship, it is her turn. She is the "adult" and needs to grow up if she wants to have a relationship with you. I think it is healthier the way it is right now.

[katie_keysburg]

I'm actually down to like, 5 shades of guilt about it.

The thing that is killing me is it feels like I have to keep making the decision not to call her. Like, I had to make the decision not to call her after two weeks, I had to make the decision not to call her on the anniversary of my dad's death, I had to make the decision not to call her and try to talk stuff out *before* her birthday... this one is a big one. This is why I usually relent/give in. I wear MYSELF down. I don't know if it feels like this to other people.

But it's way harder for me to keep a grudge than it seems. This one is still sticking though.

And yeah, I'm pretty sure this birthday will be another epic one ;)