nothing feels right.

despite multiple factors that make me feel unattractive in so many ways recently, i'm going to prevail and i know i am a beautiful person ( Read more... )

even if things get heavy,


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i want to disappear for a while.

i'm going back to school today.
its my first time alone in my home all break and its very much depressing.
this semester will be absolutely miserable.
a lot of what i care about is gone.
including my will to graduate.
fucking fuck.

so much is going to be different and i'm really not ready to embark on this journey yet.

well, i guess not.

i'd like to think its me.
though it probably isn't.

I imagine dancing with with my father to this song at my wedding.
www.sendspace.com/file/11aup6

I hope you'll all be there.

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I'm back from my long summer away from home.
I've spent the last two months jet-setting from Washington DC, to Greenboro, North Carolina, and then to Kerrville, Texas.
Two long months of self-realization, crying, drinking, memories, life lessons, good times, bad times, new people, new places, adaptation, loneliness, and myself.
I'm not ready to travel ( Read more... )