i know i tried my best to be a really good person, and a really good friend.

and thats all that matters

i have never in my life not been able to come up with something to say.
3 days in a row. im blank.
when im around you its as if my tongue has been completely severed.
i cant tell if i love it or hate it.
but i need to put some words together soon or you are gonna find someone who can.

i guess all that matters is that i am happy
which i am, i dont want it to seem like i am not.
as long as i know who i am, and as long as im not in la la land i am going to be fine.

im just going to be myself.
no games
no competition.
just being happy.

its worked so far.

the following was taken from a horoscope for MY exact Birthdate. January 5th

i might give the impression of being disorganized because i always seem to be in a hurry and am a rapid-fire conversationalist, but i am really a brilliant person.
(ummm ok because i cant function when things are all in order not to mention the way my stuff looks ( Read more... )

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theres this half of me, and for some reason maybe more, who wants to surrender from this shell that i have formed over the past 5 years ( Read more... )

i havent written in a while.
its so strange how everything can change.
I am so happy Its amazing.

1. got my feet tattooed. (not finished yet)

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I'm trying to be brave 'cause when I'm brave
other people feel brave
but I feel like my heart is caving in

on another note.
Brandon...Please don't forget to breathe.
ok thanks.

<3

i havent drank in 3 days.
i havent had a cig in 3 days.
i havent had sex in 15 days.(which is fine, i can totaly deal with that but....)i havent even made a wish in 12 days because i went on tour and i havent been alone since.

I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO EXPLODE.

got my tattoo for my dad

and i love it.