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Yup
It really does suck being alone. Dustin is in Houston right now at a hotel. His mom thinks that it is better for him to be near his job because of his recent Crohn's issues. He's been feeling better lately so i honestly find it unnecessary and possibly detrimental to his health because he can't have meals cooked by me that we usually share but ( Read more... ) -
Long night
Lately i have been contemplating the various things that have been happening in my life. Now that school is out for the summer, i have much more time to myself just to think, and not about the difference between an INFJ and ENTJ personality and how to best manage them. Of course, there is the whole Dustin and I relationship thing we have. I enjoy ( Read more... ) -
Remind me
I feel like it's the same thing over and over again; "how has your day been?", "what was for dinner?","anything exciting happen?","I miss you","I love you","can't wait to see you", then silence. I don't know what else to say. I honestly have nothing to say to him. Idk if it's just that we've gotten used to eachother or idk what has changed but I ( Read more... ) -
Take a chance on me
There are some things you just never know. You can think you've got it all figured out then one tiny thing will change your whole world. I'm tired of trying to decide things. I'm not going to be the one to put everyone on the spot to get everything out in the open. But when it matters most, will everyone even then really be willing to say the truth ( Read more... ) -
What's the point?
Who needs friends? Who needs family? WTF is really the point? what is the point in working? For money? Why do you want money? to live? Then why are we living? to have kids? we live to procreate and make more people that exponentially make more people... so what's the point collectively? Ok, so God made us, but why? What was the point? He got bored ( Read more... ) -
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I hate how I will never experience the randomness of finding out I'm pregnant. The excitement. The awe. Because with Dustin, it's all going to have to be planned. He has to be off his meds 3 months then MAYBE we can have kids if either of us are even fertile. Whoop de fucking do!!!!! Im going to basically decide when I have kids and to be honest I ( Read more... ) -
Dead
Nothing is going right. I got a speeding ticket while going to pick up Dustin. There goes $150 plus my time to do defensive driving. I can't afford my bills with the job I currently have. I make about $866 a month. My rent is 424, plus my braces being 218.75 that takes up the majority of it. Then gas (because of my job) 250, which than leaves me ( Read more... ) -
Black bird fly away, may you never be broken again
Well, yesterday was kinda fun. Got in an argument with Dustin about feeling unwanted.... He keeps saying he can't see me because he doesn't have the money but just happened to mention that he bought fable 3 for $30... Then tried to say that it was for both of us.... When we both damn well know that I won't be playing it for at least 2 years and by ( Read more... ) -
Your love your love your love.... Is my drug.... I like your beard
You never know what you have until it's gone and you are tossing and turning every night thinking about it wishing it was still there... Ugh I've never missed someone this much. :( I think I've been holding back the tears to be honest. I keep getting this sick feeling every night. My mom gets mad at me for sleeping in and staying up. It's my summer ( Read more... ) -
I can't live with or without you
I'm just a bad girlfriend. I don't know what is wrong with me.
I got into a stupid argument with Durtschi about how he has an open relationship with some girl. He acted like I was appalled that he would do that when all I said was I didn't think he was the kind of guy who would want to do that... There is no way in hell we would have worked out. He ( Read more... )