I was once told that journaling was good for the brain so I'm going to start throwing down my BS on this page again ( Read more... )

Katie is a sad katie today. Awesome news that derek got a job in Torrance. Way cool. However Katie is sad because he's going to be living there and she going to be staying in Ridgecrest for at least the spring semester. okay, I might just be over reaching but I'm fucking devestated that we're not going to be close again. I thought four months while ( Read more... )

So I'm finally home. Uhg I want to go back sometimes. Nothing around me seems clean. I'm cleaning EVERYTHING over and over but everything seems to be disgusting before I can turn around. Derek has been great. No complaints there. But, my head has me in a hole. I need movement other than fallowing my stupid meal plan waiting all day to go to work ( Read more... )

Amanda from the Dresden Dolls wrote me a letter. I'm offically the happiest stalker in the whole wide world. It was a real letter too. Not a "thanks for liking my band" one but a real one. :) Happy Katie

Okay, So most of my plans of last weekend were cancled. Why? Everrette left me a message on my phone which made me think he was going to kill himself so I got a 24 hour pass from my doctor to go home and check on him. So thats what happend to all my planned phone calls and trips. But, Ev is okay and that's all that matters to me right now. Autumn I ( Read more... )

I'm Alive!!!!!! Many apologize to all the people I haven't been talking to or calling back. I have been in a state of pure blah and crying for weeks now(well a year really). But now I'm going out into the world and doing things again ( Read more... )

I told myself not to make friends in rehab. Bad Katie I did. Jillian is my room mate. Bulimic and a chronic overdoser. I love her. She is the ultimate hippie. But, she is painfully down about herself and hates everything she does. My other friend is Colleen. She used to be a very suscessful model(she's 19 and has hit every magazine and runway ( Read more... )

Ah! I'm home sick!

I've relapsed twin in the last two days. But, the support I'm getting is helping.

I believe today is the first day that I can say that I really feel like I am coming out of my depression. I can feel it slowly lifting off my head. On a negative note I had a side effect to a medication today which made me have numb arms and tremors on my left side. I'm coming off meds tomorrow. Screw that shit. Anyways, I'm feeling better but I ( Read more... )