I should probably be writing to myself more than once a month. I guess at the end of the month I have more downtime at work than earlier in the month, but still. The last month has been a little nutballs. Despite the early spring weather, I’ve been in a hibernation mode when I am home, spending hours in bed watching tv and getting little else done ( Read more... )

I can’t seem to wake up or focus today, so I figured I should write something to myself to see if it helps ( Read more... )

This year I learned that ( Read more... )

Over the past month I think I have made a lot of progress. I spent a lot of time alone, which was actually good. Part of it because I was sick for like a week and didn’t feel like doing anything and part of it because I actually finally enjoy hanging out on my own. I like not having to be at the mercy of anyone else’s schedule/needs/wants/desires ( Read more... )

I keep wondering when I will feel like I have actually achieved something with all of the work I am doing. I know I’ve made progress but I really want an ending point. Everyone says I’ll just know it when it happens and it’s not time yet, which I have to believe is true right now. I know I have made a lot of strides forward, but the work is tiring ( Read more... )

I’ve been feeling very blah lately. Unmotivated to do much, to get out of bed, to use my work and down time productively, just entirely blah. I spoke with my therapist about this on Monday and it seems as if I am not depressed, but rather in a transitory state. I think it’s the transition of the seasons, the shorter, colder, darker days beginning ( Read more... )

I'm slowly going through notebooks where I scribbled down quotes and did exercises from inspirational and self-help books over the past year or so. As I was flipping through one, I came across the below letter I wrote to my life a little over a year ago. It was a time when I was still raw from the first breakup with Matt and hating my job and all ( Read more... )

And once again, it’s funny how quickly things change. More importantly, it’s amazing to see how much I have changed when put to the test ( Read more... )

Class was kind of awful but I’m determined to have a better attitude towards it, after all I did choose to sign up for it so I shouldn’t be complaining about it. I don’t have to do it. I’m severely annoyed by people who choose to do things then complain about having to do them these days. If you don’t want to do it, why are you doing it ( Read more... )

Mixed feelings tonight. Tomorrow night is my first class in 3 years. THREE YEARS. After I said countless times that I would never go back to school. Well, here I come BU Real Estate Finance Certificate! It will probably take a few years since it's something you can do at your leisure, but still, it's weird to be going back to school. Homework? ( Read more... )