a poem I wrote a month ago :)

Corinna

She warms me with scarlet lipped kisses
but beneath the gloss is the pallor of death
a cold body, when passion retreats.
Our bones touch,
a scientific jigsaw puzzle,
the human skeleton.
I see tiny veins through tissue paper skin,
translucent.
She is a road map,
avenues of ice blood.
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Hello, so no one reads this and that's okay, but I have some issues I'd like to talk about, even if the only purpose they serve is to get them off my chest.
Anyways, yes, I still suck. I have gained even more weight, and just cannot seem to make these atrocious binges cease! I now weigh 122. Which to me means failure. The voices in my head are ( Read more... )

So, I feel like a complete loser while reading my last post. I talked about how my summer goal weight was 95lbs and i wanted it more than anything. And now it is about midway through the summer and have I even come close to reaching this goal? HELL NO!  In fact, I have strayed even farther from it that ever before in my life time. I have reached an ( Read more... )

Okay so last night I completely effed up my diet. I can't belive I ate so much. See, in 15 days I'll be going to the beach with my whole school and it will in a  sense be like a premier of this summer's bikini body. I wanted to lose 4 pounds in 20 days. I planned on eating no more than 700 or 800 calories a day. The first three days went great: 575 ( Read more... )

Can you blame me? All I wanted was a little something more. I longed to be just a little better, a little stronger, a little thinner. there was this gaping emptyness inside of me. Can you blame me for desperately trying to fill it? No, I am human, I am coping. this is the only way I can keep from being consumed by a large black mass of anti-matter ( Read more... )