i want to be in love.
but more than i want to be in love with someone else.
i want to be in love with myself.

so how do you do that? when you feel like each day you are just trying to  survive, make ends meet, hold your head up... how do you let yourself love yourself?
i wanted to be at so many different places in my life by this point... im 24, and ( Read more... )

and there are many reasons.  perhaps the largest is work. i feel like work has taken over quite a bit of my life. granted i love it and i think its a good place for me to be (but this grown up life gets in the way of the rest of life).  so here is the quick rundown of my thoughts while on my lunch break ( Read more... )

lately... people have been talking to me about kids....strangers.... friends.... family members.... everyone thinks i should have kids.
i am far from ready for kids.... but why, does everyone seem to set on me having them?

when i close my eyes a series of scenes began to play out ( Read more... )

its amazing the drama, the issues, the lies, the realities, the half-truths, the stress ( Read more... )

The new years post that I never posted. I had the time to write and the time to think, but for some reason I hadn’t let myself do either.

Funny I wrote that and then I thought I would write something more.
Write that post I had meant to. But not tonight.

its the 13th.
that is 21 days.
in perspective.
that seems small.
ive waited 8 months.
what is 21 days.
along time.
as hours pass.
slow.
like molasses.
and days.
inch.
like slugs.

please tell me this won't be.
21 days without communication.

panic sets in.
what happens if he never comes?

"Im glad spokane is behind me."

scared.
but more scared to show how scared i am.