nick's dad burned me impossible to find grandaddy cds.
they are wonderful.

happy happy happy.
god damn im happy.

i love you, nicholas.
i love you too, shadowfax.

this update is dedicated to yanina, who made it possible.

i live in fresno now, bet you cant find me.

happy new year to everyone.
i will be literally alone at my mother's house, quite possibly drunk and passed out.
two more days until i will be excited to go home.
two more days until i dont feel all by myself anymore.

i can hardly wait for two more days.

holy fucking shit.
january third, two-thousand and six
is going to be the day.

my head got cleared.
i want to go back.
[sixty-five left]

two months.
one week.
five days.

then it all goes down.

seventy seven more days until i love you.

frustrated. very, very frustrated.
however, tomorrow is a very big day.
tomorrow is day seventy-nine.

ring ring ring ring.
my phone is a mute.