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kattwoman2

A Vow, A Letter, A Different Reality

Apr 10, 2005 12:43

I hate jack@$$es. I REALLY do! My sister told me that some dumb@$$ that attends my high school told her to tell me that he's taking karate in my dojo and that when I come back that he's going to kick my butt. I'm going to make a vow right now: If that son of a B!+C# tries to kick my butt, I swear on the life force of blood that I will stab that ( Read more... )

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Hi carrion5 July 25 2006, 02:08:50 UTC

"I feel sad by the constant discussions about him because I can never have that. I don't want him, but it does make me feel depressed when he is constantly mentioned since I'm trying to forget about what I can't have."

hi, you don't know me from adam, lol. you are friends with my friend highlandrain and Rance, whose journal i came here from. anyway, why do you feel like what you said in the above quote? i don't mean to pry or anything but im just curious as to why you feel you could never have someone. im mostly curious because this is almost exactly how i feel about myself.

Re: Hi kattwoman2 July 25 2006, 03:53:29 UTC

That was a while ago (I have private entries now), but it is still true since I haven't have a boyfriend since I was 15. I study relationships, body language, and even give advice to my male and female friends about relationships and it works well for them. However, I have even had friends tell me that I do everything right without seeming too anxious or forceful for it and the guys seem to either hook up with one of my other friends, think of me as just a friend, or they just don't think I'm the right type. I've tried everything and the closest I've gotten was somehow attracting lesbians and having women telling me that I'm "hot" and "sexy"...with the occasional married/creepy guy ( ... )

Re: Hi carrion5 July 25 2006, 15:03:37 UTC

yeah, i know what you mean.

as for me, i have never really layed my finger on the exact reason. i have low self-esteem and a low opinion of myself so i always view the reasons of never finding anyone on my own shyness and faults. i don't find myself attractive or even interesting. on opening day at college you know how nobody knows each other and then they slowly start to talk and before to long everyone is comfortable and everything? that true except in my case. the majority of the time people act as if im not there, and it's like this in 99% of the situations like this. people can make friends with and get to know complete strangers in a college room, workplace or wherever but me. this is why i feel i can't ever meet anyone.

do you have yahoo messenger?

Re: Hi kattwoman2 July 25 2006, 17:11:07 UTC

Actually, that's a similar opinion that I have of myself. I've gotten over it somewhat thanks to talking to strangers in Forensics Speech & Debate, but I think we're in a similar boat. I don't have Yahoo! Messenger, but I do have AIM and I also have facebook if your college has it as well.