Xanga is no longer my friend. It's deleted 7 long entries that I've written in the past month. SCREW YOU, LIVEJOURNAL OWNS!

I just wrote there, because no one knew of it. Seems none of my writing is sacred nowdays. nope.

so go ahead, read it all
http://www.xanga.com/farragolights

see if I care. Xanga sucks anyway. I'm pretty sure my other writing on ( Read more... )

I've got a date?

Not really, which is a good thing. Just an invitation to go to a school event together. That's not a date. But it's one step closer. >..What are my thoughts on this? I don't know ( Read more... )

I realize that this means that the 'unconditional love and forgiveness' that I learned with him is now obsolete?

"Do not judge lest you be judged"  This verse is the basis on much of my theories of life. The full verse is as follows:

Matt. 7:1-5 Do not judge lest you be judged. For in the way you judge, you will be judged; and by your standard of ( Read more... )

He reads this.

I didn't know he even remembered this. For a minute, I felt embarrased and awkward. Some of the stuff on here is what I wish to say to him, but can not. I feel like I wrote him an e-mail and accidentaly pressed send rather than delete.

He may be a brick wall, but I'm a brick wall with a door, and he just found the key to get in.

Will you still love me in the morning?

I love you, Mine. =)

You once said "I think of you as the most valuable person in my life ( Read more... )

So, Justin's dating Alysha.

I don't know what to think about this. I have no influence in his life anymore. That's what happens when people break up.

What friends do I have? I'm feeling quite alone right now. Megan's off in her own world, and she, being unhappy, is quite self-involved right now. (That's what happens when one is depressed, it's not a ( Read more... )

Justin. <3 I saw Justin today, Justin, Shawn's cousin... eep. That put me in my first good mood... my first real good mood in a long while.

We went for a ride in his car. His car is absolutely lovely, and so is he. He is a lovely person with a lovely personality. I quite adore him, and I quite adore being with him.

Afterward, I noticed that my ( Read more... )

He asked me out ( Read more... )

I remember working. I remember going to a party at Justin's. I remember being with Megan a bit. I think I went to Shrek 3. I went to Justin's before Shrek 3 and saw Justin with Alysha... and I remember staring at the powerlines.

Today I made cookies. Last night, we drew blood on Megan's wrists.

That's what I remember.

I remember running around a ( Read more... )