i need to talk to someone. and i think i need to talk to someone totally distant and out of the loop. im thinking about calling rachel, but i dont know if she would understand...or approve. i dont know what to do or what to think anymore. i feel like a robot. i just need to be programmed. maybe i will email tracy and get her older and wiser ( Read more... )

everyone is so miserable. this is weird.

only did that because of who i woke up next to. i love you.

we had practice this morning. well, first we had the run which i have to re-do :( i had to stop and do my inhaler because i could not breathe at all and i ended up missing the 15 minute mark by 36 seconds. i was really unhappy about that. then i went to registration and we had another practice at 10 which was okay. everyone was saying that i ( Read more... )

hi. im at college. neat huh. im about to go to dinner and then to a party. this is weird. i dont know if i like it yet. but i like my room. so that is good. and i hope when my roommate comes she doesnt want to rearrange everything, because i will not be down with that. im not feeling like myself. hmm..

everything is coming to an end and im not ready for it. im sitting here in tears because im not ready for this all to be over. i have 4 days left in my comfortable little world. then i will be thrown out on my own. my friends wont be closer than an hour away. im not ready for that ( Read more... )

man. i have not updated in forever. i have been working a lot and just been really busy otherwise ( Read more... )

so i finally called my roommate. she's not at all what i was expecting. she seems super nice and we are meeting for lunch and shopping later this month. shes mexican (just thought i would clear that up for everyone) and she seems really cool. im thinking about inviting her to my party on the 23rd but im not sure yet. what does everyone think ( Read more... )

thank you for letting me come over and cry.
thank you for not freaking out about it.
thank you for holding me .
thank you for encouraging me to talk, but not forcing me to.
thank you for being you.
thank you for loving me. (i love you too).
thank you.

jeremy has mono. that means im going to have mono. that sucks ( Read more... )