so i havent updated in like, a week, because everything has been so busy. last week was TAKS for the youngins so the seniors didnt have to go to school until 1030. that was cool except i went around the normal time nayway, just so that i could get school hours for NHS ( Read more... )

so saturday was arizona. it was okay i suppose. it makes me sad that i am 17 and i have seen my grandfather for the last time. i will soon be grandfatherless. i didnt know my grandpa very well, not like i knew my opa. you see, he was an alcoholic and he loved the bottle more than he loved his family, so we didnt get to see him much. his death ( Read more... )

tomorrow i am flying to arizona for the day to visit my grandpa in the hospital. i am trying to prepare for the worst. im flying by myself. first time ever. cool huh ( Read more... )

he's still alive and he's hoping to make it until friday when his sons go and visit him. it is doubtful that he will ( Read more... )

why does there have to be death. i dont understand. i mean, i do understand thats its a part of life. but it seems to come in cycles. maybe. i dont know. its the middle of the month and there have been 4 deaths already. and people leaving, which is sort of like death in a sense, but not really, like...temporary death. first scott, then mrs ( Read more... )

i have spent almost 3 hours giving my journal a face lift. i am pretty happy with it though. i found out a lot about livejournal and editing pictures and getting hosts for pictures and all this other stuff. i have a headache now though.

please go look at my journal and let me know what you think.

im off to church.

♥ kate

failure is the language I am all too fluent. Something in the air, something in the error of my ways, something in the failure of the error of my ways. I write because I want to tell the world something that I can't myself picture with clear vision so I am hoping that all these fragments of thoughts come together at some point. Do I even have a ( Read more... )

today was good. i am pretty okay now. this was fun. enjoy ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like im a really bad person. like im a horrible person. like i dont deserve anything i have. my friends. my house. my family. my life. sometimes i feel like i dont deserve to live. there are so many people that are better than me. and so many of those people are so much worse off. sometimes i think that people would be ( Read more... )

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