"Night is purer than day; it is better for thinking and loving and dreaming. At night everything is more intense, more true. The echo of words that have been spoken during the day takes on a new and deeper meaning. The tragedy of man is that he doesn't know how to distinguish between day and night. He says things at night that should only be said ( Read more... )

i feel like i'm at this point in my life where i just don't know what i want sometimes... and it frightens me... i've got it in my head that if i don't figure it out soon that it's going to be too late to do what it is i want if i don't figure it out in time... i mean there are certain things that just aren't happening because they're sort of out ( Read more... )

YES!
haha Lacey K. is a funny drunk... i dressed like a slutty pirate... though not the sluttiest... cuz my "sister" was... but we were drunk and dancing and having fun... thanks to scott, nikki and kyle for buying me drinks... even though i was in the bag after 2... they thought it was SO funny and got the idea to buy me more... haha i had so much

i had so much fun with Martin and Tara last night... except that i had the worst headache ever... and it got even worse when i got home... enough to make me puke... it was aweful... now i have to sew a lot... and go buy zippers... fuck i still feel ill. i just want to sleep all day but i have people to catch up with and then i'm off to st.kitts for ( Read more... )

so i'm in town... gotta sew up a motherfucking storm today... still have to add seam allowances to my patterns... bah i say... but umm tonight- sushi, coffee/tea, cigarettes?

i want to curl up in to a ball and fucking die... or at least hide under the covers until i do. the pieces aren't fitting and the ones that should are disappearing... there's no more big picture... it's all just abstract expressionism... without any expression... just hidden emotion.

i'm going back to my parents' on wednesday night now... thought it was going to be thursday but i guess not... my dad's picking me up so that saves me bus money...

this is a pointless entry and i don't want to continue writing it.

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+i'd really like to visit guelph and all those fine people living there soon ( Read more... )

i did something i have not done in a long time.
i did something i should not have done.
i feel so stupid.
i feel so weak.
yet i still feel numb.