I went to a wedding today. The woman getting married is a teacher at my school. She, like me, had been with someone for years and felt like nothing would ever happen. Somehow, I felt like maybe it wasn't just me. No matter how much I tried, loved, and cried, I thought like her we would someday be happy. I must have held back my tears at least a few ( Read more... )

During the day I usually feel okay. But then every so often something hits me and I crumble. This sucks. I know it's over. I know the relationship is dead. I just wish my heart would hurry up and agree with my head. Then again, the two of them have been arguing for some time ( Read more... )

I must admit I'm used to waiting now. I've been visiting with my mom this week. It was good for me to get out but I've caught myself many times waiting. Waiting for what? I guess it's just habit. I wait. I think. I wait some more ( Read more... )

I have a difficult time keeping up on this thing. Like someone else I know, I seem to only write down my thoughts when I'm upset. In this case, I've never been more depressed. I've never gone so long without really eating. Sure, I've been hungry..some. But my stomach still feels sick and I think I will feel it even more if the hunger goes away ( Read more... )

Ok, I get that people are scared of change. Ok, that's fine.. But I have to say something to those STUPID people out there...(of course they aren't reading this, so this is a warning for those who are reading it.. I'm going to vent about the health care issue ( Read more... )

Jason and I talked in person for the first time in a long time yesterday. After everything that has happened and his insecurities, I was concerned and now I have doubts. Maybe I worry needlessly, but I can't help it. On the positive side, he said he was done freaking out and would like to work with me and try a more communicative relationship. He's ( Read more... )

So much for thinking love was enough. I guess it doesn't count if it's one-sided.

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I woke up feeling.. empty. Not too tired (which was a surprise) but more like a hole was gone and I was numb ( Read more... )

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